The numbers made my frown tighten, or maybe it was just the knowledge that Gabriel would be standing right outside the door. Do not give me a funeral to remember what killed me. Do not grieve for me when this cancer wins. I placed my hand on the doorframe and looked back once. How much more powerless and insignificant can a person feel when watching someone they love slowly die? I wished each night to take his place, yet I was still standing there and Jacob was gone. Jacob’s trembling hands, and jaundice skin showed his inability to fight the invisible murderous enemy. Does life ever get any easier?įor so long, I helplessly watched as a vicious disease sucked the life out of his once strong spirit. Someone cut off the horrific screams of the heart monitor and the sudden realization that Jacob was dead shot waves of horror through me. Voices blurred and time seemed to slow down as I made my way towards the hall. He was gone and I was completely alone again. I stepped back as nurses and doctors flooded the room, but I knew it was too late. The monitors screamed their piercing sirens. I’ll be fine, don’t hold on for me.”Ī lone tear escaped from his eye and his breathing stilled. He struggled for breath and mumbled something I couldn’t hear. I got up from where I was sitting and leaned in close to him, placing my hand on his cheek. I opened my eyes slowly, and as always, he lay there watching me. What woke me was the insistent beep-beep-beep of the little machine that was monitoring his dying heart.
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